Money vs Distance......

i've been long to post bout this...tp cam malas....it's bout marriage life....since i like to blog hop...so, it come to my senses, to think bout it and to blog bout it.....please be inform, this is not refering to anyone...it's just how i felt....

which do u prefer?? money or distance....?? this is referring to your hubby....do u prefer a husband wif lots of money or in other words money is never a problem to him and to you...he can buy u lots of things....u dun have to contribute to any household expenses, when u dun have monye u can just ask him for it....but he's not always around which in this situation, he works off shore or abroad......where he won't be with you all da time...

or.....

a husband wif a normal job, earn sufficient enuff to pay all da debts but always by your side??for me, i'll choose distance....i am an independent women....i take control of myself and i manage to do things on my own....but..............i can say that i'm manja...i need company...when i fall i need someone to catch me....and i need some one to talk to when i got something bothering me...tp i'm not da person yg nak 24/7 berkepit je....sumtimes mr hubby ade jerk buat OT balik lambat...during weekend dia keje ke...or dia gi kuar jumpe kawan ke, main futsal ke...gi kursus dan tgglkan aku ke...ade jerk....

tp, i need him to be by my side contoh macam bile aku demam....Alhamdulillah mr hubby is very passionate bile aku demam....dia akan bawak aku gi klinik....dia akan suap aku mkn....kalo aku muntah pun dia bole le tadah....kalo cam aku, baru dengar org uwek jerk....aku pun dah nak uwek....tp mr hubby nie dia bole le kalo takat nak lap muntah aku ke....then bile aku nak gi shopping ke, tgk wayang ke, nak gi umah sedara mara ke, nak gi memana le...dia ade...kire he's my bestfren gak le...and dia ade setiap kali aku gi check up baby....he never miss....dan i just found out that, kalo mr hubby nie xde, aku susah nak tido.....ade satu time tuh, dia balik seremban ade hal, tggl aku sowang jerk.....sampai kol 3 pagi aku xle nak tido...huhuhu.....even kalo aku tido dlm blk, dia dok kat hall tgk tv pun aku xle nak tido....hahaha....ntah dia bg minyak senyonyong ape ntah kat aku sampai aku jadik camnie....hahaha......yes u can say that aku manja and i admit...aku mmg manja...tp aku bukan dependent.....

at 1st, i couldn't accept that he has to work in shift...maknanyer dia akan balik mlm at 9:30pm.... sbb before kawen i've mentioned that i will never ever want him to work in shift...dia kene keje normal hour...balik mlm mkn kat umah....spend time during weekend....coz it's been our family's tradition that every dinner we have to sit together and eat....spend weekends together.....it's a quality family time....even mak pun xbrape suka kalo mr hubby keje shift.....even sampai bulan pose pun, bole kire jerk bape kali kitowang buka pose sesama.....

but when i read other ppl's blog, where their husband have to go to japan for 3 months la....then they always looking forward for her hubby to come back la....i come to my senses and aku bersyukur, though mr hubby balik mlm skalik pun.....he will always da last person i look before i go to sleep and da 1st person i woke up to....

mcm for this year, a lot of things happened to me....and Alhamdulillah and i'm glad he's by my side....he's by ma side when mak left me...i'm by his side when his father left him....he's by my side when i found out i'm preggy....he's by my side during raya.....

and no he didn't earn much....even i earn more than him....we sumtime struggle just not to suffocate....but i'm glad he's always by my side through all my obstacle and tru my sad and happy moment, tru my ups and downs..... Alhamdulillah...kita kadang tak bersyukur dgn ape yg ade dpn mata kita.....itu sbb kita kene slalu buka mata, buka hati dan buka minda.....read a lot, be humble, meet good ppl....then u'll be thankful for wut u have.....