Delivering the Delivery 2 (Part 1)

8th July 2013 (Monday)
I went to work as normal.. dah janji dengan kak pizah esok nak makan kat Delicious coz its my birthday!!! balik tu singgah block A jumpa asma, sbb nak ambek sampel kueh chocolate chip. Nak buat testing sok coz lusa kan puasa. Kekonon nak jual as a kueh raya la.

malam tu lepas makan tengah relax-relax, hati ni macam tak sedap je. sebab rasa baby ni sangat kurang gerak. I don't even recall when was his last movement. Rasa macam tak bergerak langsung je seharian. I told Encik Suami, he asked "nak pegi hospital ke?".. i said, "tunggu dulu la. mana tau pasni dia gerak ke." that was around 9:00pm. nearing 11:00 pm, still there was no movement. i've tried to push him, poke him, goncang perut, but still there was no movement. nak gi klinik mmg dah tutup la at this hour. so, we decided to straight away go to Hospital Sungai Buloh. 

Called Reen, owner of Ameer's nursery. nak mintak tolong dia jagakan Ameer sbb nak gi Hospital. Sbb takut kene tahan. And nanti daddy nak uruskan Mommy, nak layankan Ameer takut daddy tak menang tangan. bawak semua beg. Beg baju Mommy, beg adik, Beg documents of my previous pregnancy and delivery and current check up for pregnancy. Masa on the way nak gi Block D, sbb rumah Cikgu Ameer tu block D, cakap dengan Abang Ameer, "Abang Ameer, mommy nak pegi jumpe doctor, Abang Ameer tinggal dengan cikgu ye. Abang Ameer tido dengan cikgu ye. Abang Ameer be a good boy okay." Ameer diam je. when we arrived, and Reen pick him up, Mommy salam, hug him tightly and kiss him deeply. Mommy almost cry and Abang Ameer still remain calm. I said to him, "Abang Ameer tinggal dengan cikgu ye, Mommy pegi jumpa doktor tau." He just nodded calmly. his calmness broke my heart. sbb he seems to understand what's going on and he actually tolerating with the situation. knowing that he understand and tolerating made me overwhelming and a bit sad. macam rasa kesiannye anak Mommy kene tinggal and he's so grown up coz he was so calm. Ameer tak penah ditinggalkan overnight without any of me or his daddy.. not even with nenek.. so this is a break through..

11:30pm
arrived and registered. Tunggu agak lama and i was restless sbb risau adik dah tak gerak agak lama dah ni. Nurse sebuk soh timbang, and cek CTG. Alhamdulillah naseb baek CTG ade bunyi heart beat, time tu mcm dah lega ckit la. still im trying to push him, poke him and goncang perut. Sementara nak tunggu doctor cek, aku tgk jam, eh, it's already past 12:00 am!!! it's my birthday and i'm still in the hospital. taknak celebrate besday dalam hospital!! No!! aku nengok ade sorang doctor ni, mundar-mandir..mundar-mandir.. tp tak cek pun aku lg. aku dah agitated dah nie. So aku pun pegi kat dia, “Doctor saya nak Tanya, bape lama lagi ye saya kene tunggu? Sy nak tunggu ape sebenanya ye?” Okay I know this is a government hospital, what to expect? But still, at least feed me with some info why am I still here and what am I waiting for. Then Doctor tu ckp, “kejap ye Puan,tggu doctor lain dtg cek.” Isk, nak je aku tanya kan, mana doctor lain? Bile nak cek? Nak cek ape? Sebab aku tgk dia sorang je doctor time tu.

5:00 am
Akhirnya my name being called to see the doctor. Jumpe doctor laki India.. dia tanya aku a few question, then dia suruh aku baring. Then dia panggil sorang nurse ni masuk blk skalik, rupanya dia nak “seluk”. Aku macam kompius apakah motip dia nak “seluk” kot. I’m at 38 weeks,no sign of contraction then tetibe ko nak seluk. Ape point ko? 

Aku : So doctor saya bole balik ke?
Doc Lelaki India yang seluk aku tadi : Mungkin boleh, so Puan tunggu ye nnt nurse clearkan then Puan bole balik. But before that kita akan scan baby dulu. Puan duduk dulu
Aku : Kenapa tak buat sekarang je doc?
Doc Lelaki India yang seluk aku tadi : Kene tunggu doctor yang bole buat scan
Aku : Doctor tak bole ke?
Doc Lelaki India yang seluk aku tadi : saya tak pandai scan (dengan muka dan nada yg tiada perasaan.
Aku : (............................................................)

7:00 am
Aku dok menunggu la dari tadi. Hari ni dah le aku ade miting yang agak penting jugak. So aku sms Mak Pizah, “Akak hari ni saya EL la kot. Saya still in hospital. Akak masuk le meeting Taylor’s tu nnt ek”. Dah 24 jam dah aku xtido ni. aku restless mana bole tido kot. Dok pikir nak balik je and dok pikir meeting and paling aku serabut, aku celebrate besday kat sepital. then tetibe ade doctor perempuan panggil aku. dengan pantas akau bangun disamping harapan berbunga-bunga yang lepas jumpa doctor ni aku bole balik, tido then bangun celebrate birthday aku yg ke-30. the big number. a change of decade. from the small 2 to the big three...

Doc Perempuan : Puan baring, saya nak scan. Kenapa Puan datang hari ni?(Doc pun pusing-pusing benda alah scan tu atas perut aku)
Aku : Anak saya tak bergerak seharian semalam. So saya datang la untuk cek. Tapi smlm masa sampai hospital, dia dah gerak dah (dengan harapan jawapan aku ni diterima oleh doctor dan tanpa berpikir panjang doc akan discharge kan aku terus)
Doc Perempuan : Puan, anak Puan ni songsang la Puan.
Aku : Huh?? (dengan nada yang agak kuat sbb aku macam terkejut beruk)           
       Songsang?! Macam mana boleh songsang pulak?! Doc ni betul ke?
Doc Perempuan : Betul Puan, cuba Puan tgk screen ni.
Aku : Doc India lelaki yang cek saya tadi tak cakap pape pun. 
Doc Perempuan : memang le dia tak cakap pape sbb dia xtau. ni saya dah scan mmg anak Puan songsang.
Aku : Habes tu macam mana ni?
Doc Perempuan : Nanti Puan tunggu dulu, kita arrange untuk czer terus hari ni.
Aku : Hari ni doc? sekarang?
Doc Perempuan : Yelah. hari ni la. xbole nak pusing sbb ni dah 2nd pregnancy Puan and 1st pregnancy Puan czer.
Aku : (Makin blur) (- . -) tapi dalam hati aku dah pikir, besday adik sama ngan mommy!! yeay!!


aku pun call Encik Suami, dia yang dok terpisat-pisat sbb ngantuk tu makin la blur dan terkejut. naseb baek siang td aku dah dapat power bank yang aku beli dr Groupon minggu lepas. kalo dak mmg bateri aku dah out dah.

aku masih macam xle nak terima kenyataan yang aku nak kene beranak dah. sbb aku expect I have another week and i can settle all my work and hand over to my colleague. Bole lagi dah nak beranak dok pikir pasal keje. aku mula la dah pikir kompom aku kene maki kaw-kaw sbb bnyk lg benda outstanding. dah le dengan Vp baru, then Manager baru pun dah masuk. OMG!!!

Then aku macam dah xle pikir sbb aku macam dah ngantuk gile. Aku tgh pikir katil je skrg. since i'm in government Hospital, of course le katil sentiasa penuh. naseb baek ade waiting sleeping area. macam wad transit la. sape yg ade tag admitted je bole tido or baring kat ctu sementara tunggu katil available. bile dah ade tag tu ade extra privilege la. kitorang dapat katil transit, dapat baju and dapat makan. macam best sgt je (-_-) tapi disaat ko dah berjaga for 30 hours dan dah kebulur tahap gaban, tu semua adalah satu privilege. lama giler dah aku tak stay up lama cenggini. last time was when we went to Genting.

aku still macam kompius and tak percaya yang aku mmg kene operate hari ni. tak tau nak bitau ke dok kat abang-abang and akok ipar aku. nak bitau kat mama ke idok pun xtau lg. then ade doc dtg ckp kat aku, aku operate besok sbb hr ni OT dah penuh and kes aku ni xde le serious sgt. phew!! I'm so not ready okay!!

3:00 pm
baru le aku dapat katil.
doc anesthetic pun dah jumpe, interview and brief aku sementara doc tunggu bilik tu. Dapat wad 6 katil. okle.. janji dapat le katil. dr aku duduk je since mlm semalam. Alhamdulillah.
aku call Reen (owner nursery Ameer), Reen cakap Ameer smlm tido dengan dia. sikit pun xtanya mommy mana. Dia main-main sampai le dia tertido. sbb Reen pun ade anak laki umo 5 thn sorang and anak pompuan umo 2thn.. diorang mmg kawan main ameer. so takde le dia sunyi sangat. pegi Nursery pun tengah hari sbb bangun lambat (typical Ameer). bile Reen cakap Ameer tak tanya tu, aku dah sebak. Sebab aku tau bukan dia tak tertanya-tanya or terpikir-pikir, tp sbb dia pendam and dia xnak sebut. I know my son, dia mmg jenis pendam perasaan. OMG! Al-Ameer Hafiz, u really portray and carry your name well.

then encik suami datang hanta beg. kemain banyak bek aku angkut. hahaha.. beg baju aku satu, beg adik satu, beg susu satu. esok aku punya case 2nd, so around 11:00 am la aku operate. makanya aku kene start pose malam ni dari pukul 12:00 am. kebetulan, esoknya pun 1 Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah.. Encik suami balik je, aku terus melayar bahtera mimpi.. ZZZZZZzzzzzzzz...

naseb baek the previous weekend my FIL came coz Farah, my SIL wanted to celebrate birthday with me.. Alhamdulillah... merasa le jugak..

I'm baking a bun...

In my previous blog post, I mentioned that i'm gonna share why Ameer finally stop breast feeding...

Well, the reason is, there's a bun in the oven.. Alhamdulillah I'm almost 8 month pregnant.. dah 8 month pregnant baru nak update blog?? Cik Puan Peah oi!!! dulu masa preggy kan Ameer, baru dapat tau through pregnancy test dah kecoh kat blog. Blum confirm by doctor lagi. Yang skang ni, dah 8th month, baru terhegeh nak citer kat blog. hahaha... rasa macam dah xrajin nak update blog. Dulu alasan kekonon dah ade twitter, tp twitter pun dah tak active sangat. ni semua sbb Candy Crush Saga punya penangan la nie. Damn you Candy Crush Saga!!

In Sha Allah my EDD will be on 17th July. Timing salah betul la. bole plak EDD time bulan pose. MIL pun ckp, nape tak tunggu bulan October? Mama dah pencen time tu. hahaha.. mmg we are ready to conceived kekonon planning to deliver by 2013. xsangka plak Allah berikan rezeki both of us ni subur. 1st attempt dah lekat. hahahaha.. Alhamdulillah. both of us pun tak bajet yg kitorang ni adalah sangat subur. I suspected i was pregnant, tp xcek lg sbb mcm baru seminggu je miss period. then aku gi klinik sbb ade alergic yg buat itchy, then masa doc nak prescribe ubat, aku tanya pregnant bole sapu or makan ke ubat ni? then dia tanya au pregnant ke? then aku ckp xsure sbb xcek lg. trus buat time tuh. then confirm aku pregnant. huhu..

This time, its another baby boy. walaupun sebenanyer tersangat le berharap dapat baby girl sbb dah tak sabar dah nak beli baju baby girl yang sangat cute-cute tu. and kalo dapat baby gurl, plan nak jarakkan the next pregnancy sbb cost. memang la orang ckp anak adalah rezeki, but of course we should be well prepared in term of mentally and financially. both me and Encik Suami is trying to be debt free now. tp it's so impossible in the world now. debt free that i mean to doesn't include morgage or hire purchase, itu haruslah berhutang kan? tp xpe la, just doakan semoga this baby will get the best and kitorang akan murah rezeki, mebi bukan dari segi financially, mebi dari segi lain. Allah Maha Mengetahui and Allah Maha Mengasihi.

and this 2nd pregnancy ade lain ckit dr abg Ameer. of course la, every pregnancy is different, even every child have the difference and their own identity. at this moment, during my 32nd weeks, baby still not in position. baby still melintang kat dalam perut nie. aku pun xtau ape motif dia dok melintang. tak ke lagi sempit kalo dia dok melintang dalam perut aku? semalam Encik Suami tanya, nape dia xpusing macam Ameer? huhu, aku jawap "Dia xtau kot yang dia kene pusing". so, starting from next check-up, i have to go to Specialist Gynea. Kene pegi Hospital Sungai Buloh terus. and by 36 weeks kalo baby still breach, disarankan untuk czer je terus. tp itu saranan my current doctor yg aku gi check-up. kita tunggu saranan the Specialist nanti.

In Sya Allah nanti aku akan deliver kat Hospital Sungai Buloh sbb aku sangat-sangat puas ati ngan Hospital Sungai Buloh. mebi masa time sakit tu dia xde le melayan aku sgt kan? biar aku sakit kering sorang2 atas katil tu, yele sakit nak besalin je kan? org lain pun nak besalin gak, bukan aku sorang je nak besalin smp derang kene dok ngadap aku kan? tp post pregnancy punya treatment mmg superb. lagik superb sbb masa aku dah le czer, dok seminggu 7 hari 7 malam dalam bilik 2nd class, skalik dapat bill RM180 jerk. superb giler kot. siap xclaim kat company sbb xjumpe resit. wahahahaha... lagipu company aku cover RM3,500 je for czer.

this was in December 2012..br 2 months pregnant..

this was in 

abang Ameer mmg suka tido dgn adik.. meaning tido atas perut aku... he will say "Nak tido Adik".. nnt adik dia yg kat dlm tu mengelejat le.. bergerak-gerak

this was last month which was early May.. masa last balik Ipoh before delivery.. dah 6 weeks++

ni gamba aku berangan sbb aku bajet aku cam cun.. hahaha.. 7 months pregnant.. this baby cam a lil bit smaller compared to Abg Ameer.. tp xcompare betul2 lg sbb blum tgk last pregnancy punya kad..