Love is you and me Contest

atas permintaan puan bibah, dan support sebagai seorang kawan (aku tgh up ko nie, so consider le aku sbg pemenang), aku buat le post nie.....

beba nie is a house wife cum home based entrepreneur mother....dia dok umah jerk, but she has a few blog that can make money...one of it is da sabah accessories where u can get this stuff which i have my eye fixed on it (kalo aku menang ko bg le nie dalam 4 kaler erk boobs)...


i just have to post a pic which i thought ala-ala romantika d amour gitew....itu perahsaan sendirik jele....tp xtentu lagik judge dia rasa romantika kan?? (anas, beba & alif, nnt kowang balik kajang aku belanja kat fullhouse erk masa ko nak bg hadiah contest nie kat aku)...huhu....so, memandangkan aku nie mmg jenis tak reti nak buat keputusan, aku boh le 3 gamba....sesapa yg baca blog nie, tolong le vote antara 3 nie mn yg romantik le kekonon (geli ckit le tekak aku)....aku sebenanyer cam memalu nak letak gamba perahsaan nie (walaupun hakikatnye aku kak dent)...

nie gamba masa outdoor wedding photography....cameraman yg soh amik gamba cam nie....

nie plak aku curik gamba dr owner contest nie...peh tuh ngan kompiden letak chop "peah hashim"....huhu....
i lov u mr hubby coz u accept me yg berperangai sengal, dan sanggup bersengal-sengalan ngan i jugak....


and last but not least is this photo......
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which aku cam segan.....










tp, aku letak gak le.....












nie ialah aktiviti harian kami dimana masa nengok tv kat umah ngan mr hubby.....dia mmg suka dok umah tak pakai baju, kekonon seksi gitew....huhu....

love is you and is not just a contest, for me is because i love you for loving me, and all of my flaws....

oklah, mau pulang masak kari ayam dan membuat aktiviti seperti gamba no 3....huhu....

Signs u might be pregnant....

1.Missed a period

It’s the most obvious sign of pregnancy so if you’re unusually late it’s worth taking a pregnancy test.

2. The classic sign? Morning sickness!

Morning sickness affects everyone differently – you could feel nauseous or physically sick. It can start a few weeks after conception or even after just a few days. If you’re very lucky, you won’t experience it at all.
It’s not a very well described symptom – it can strike at any time of day or night, not just in the mornings!

-yup....my morning sickness happenens when it's almost time to go back from work.....and it last till 8:00pm.

3. Going to the toilet a lot!

If you notice you’re constantly running to the toilet, this could be a good sign that you’re pregnant. All of the hormonal changes your body goes through during the first trimester can make toilet stops more frequent.

4. Feeling tired?

One of the most common early signs of pregnancy is a feeling of complete exhaustion. It happens as a side-effect of a rise in the levels of the hormone progesterone in your body. So if there’s no other real reason for you to be so tired, check the other symptoms here to see if you could be pregnant.

-me more of feeling lazy rather than feeling tired...

5. A funny taste in your mouth

Some mums say that when they first became pregnant they got a funny taste of metal in their mouth. Other women develop an unexpected dislike for something familiar, like fish.

-how bout feelings like you're eating something???huhu....

6. Changes to your breasts

The skin around your nipples is called your areola and one sign of pregnancy can be that it becomes noticeably darker and bigger.
-ma breast feels hurt sometimes and mr hubby said it become rounder....huhu...

7. Unexpected bleeding or cramps

Your fertilised egg will travel from your fallopian tubes and settle in your uterus to grow. This is known as implantation and happens between weeks 3 and 4.
Implantation sometimes causes side effects, including cramps and some light spotting that’s red, pink or brown in colour.

Confirm your suspicions with a pregnancy test

Of course there’s only one real way to be sure you’re pregnant. You can get a reliable positive result using a home pregnancy test from the first day of your missed period.

this sources is from here...and da baby is around 8mm small....

Mengedate

semalam saya dan mr hubby pegi mengedate dan menonton cerita ini...



yer, mmg sgt ketinggalan sbb baru skang nak tengok...padahal org lain semua dah tgk lama...nie mmg dah jadik citer basi dah....gi tgk kat mid valley...and makan carl's junior....lama giler dah teringin nak mkn burger mcD sebenanyer.....tetibe dlm kepala terbayang carl's junior....dlm mulut pun rasa cam tgh kunyah jerk burger dia....so...........kami pegi mkn carl's junior....beli satu set jerk kongsi dua org...tu pun aku makan suku jerk.....perut nie cam penuh jerk......

semalam pun kami pegi beli sesuatu di guardin....setelah dinasihatkan oleh kak siti, maka kami pun beli le....pegi kat pharmacist dia, tp dia ckp carik kat shelve....owh, benda nie dah jual kat shelve....maknanyer bebdk pun dah bole beli le.....

apekah benda itu???

inilah bendanyer.....

dan hasilnya pada pagi tadi adalah.....









so...apekah maksudnya??? weekend nie kami akan pegi jumpa Puan Doctor untuk kepastian....

xde sape pun tau....pagi td aku mms K Linda.....then dia terus call....so masa ckp tepon tak sebut langsung perkataan mengandung....yg disebut cume "minum kopi bole?"...."minum teh bole?".....
"buncit tak kempis2".......dan ade la telinga-telinga kuali di opis nie yg terdengar.....dan skang 4 org yg xpatut tau dah tau.....haihhhh......dan pakar sakit puan tersebut Doctor Nazlinda Mahmud (SIL) siap dah bagi tarikh dijangka due....huhuhu...tuler, aku rasa...k linda nie patutnyer jadik doc tp terjadik cekgu....

Last weekend...........

on friday evening, arrived home and saw mr hubby wif gigs and farouk lazying in front of tv.....
mr hubby said, gigs wanna send us to KL Central....yeay....xyah naik LRT.....

our train is at 9:45....kuar rumah at 9:00.....mr hubby bile terlampau kenyang jadik terlampau malas nak drive....so i drive....i tot only onne was afraid by my driving....lgpun onne mmg takut naik keta....rupenyer farouk pun takut....he said i drive laju and cucuk2 keta org....mn ade dowh...ko je tak bese pompuan drive.....

from damansara we took kerinchi link and exit at mid valley...nak lalu jln blkg kat flat Abdullah Hukum, tp jalan tuh bole plak jem giler...wad da fuk??!!so nak lalu kat jalan maarof...skalik jem jugak....jam sudah menunjukkan pukul 9:250...huhuhu....ade potensi for ma patient to explode....sabar.....sampai TM at around 9:30...nak kene park NAS (mr hubby's car) at TM....then naik keta gig pegi KL Central.....

finally we arrived at 9:40 just 5 mins before the train scheduled to depart....tp tgk cam ramai jerk org kat tepi KFC tuh...rupenyer delay for 1/2 hour....demn.....so me and mr hubby lepak2 seperti perempat di tepi dinding...then announcement announcing that the train will only depart at 10:45 pm.....delayed for 1hr....called bancik and inform him...takut dia tetido plak...bancik nie ade potensi tido mampos yg tak dengar kalo hp berbunyik atau xtau pun dia letak hp katner....

the next day we had family breakfast picnic....bancik and k sal buat sandwich....i bought tosey and roti canai while abang beli nasi lemak.....giler bnyk makanan....da only person who was not present is K Linda...she had kursus kat sekolah.....sian.....we had da picnic at Tmn DR.....the reason was because nak bawak mak feels da fresh air and breath the fresh air...xkan nak asyik terkurung jerk....nak jenjln kene pimpim mak...coz she is still so very weak......

main-main...lari-lari.....

bile dah puas lari peh tuh dah lapa....baru le carik makanan...cam anak burung ma nieces....

sblm nie afrina was running so fast...tak kire naik bukit ker...turun bukit ke....masa turun bukit dia lari sampai beguling cam citer hindustan...nasib baik tak masuk dlm tasik....isk...bdk kecik nie...picit karang....

abah sakit pinggang....so maksu le bawak main swing.....

naik bridge....kak cho pandai buat peace woo......

kak cho dah tak malu ngan paksu.....ma niece nie jenis sgt pemalu ngan lelaki.....isk...isk...elok le kalo memalu....huhuhu....

in da afternoon was deco bersama bancik and me....though we had a few argument on how the deco will be....as usual la...hahahaha....and mr hubby finally witness how bancik always want to win an argument....tuler sayang, i told u so......we want to transform the family dining room into mak's bedroom and k sal confinement room....so, da two salbiah will be stayed together...huhuhu....

sebelum operasi deco-deco....tido sat....3 generasi...huhuhuh...mak, bancik and afrina....berbaris elok jerk....

that nite we had dinner at abang's....mak teringin nak mkn nasi beriani.....huhuhu....layan jerk....and our train back to KL was on Sunday @ 1:00pm....though it's quiet rushing...tp mr hubby nak balik awal...yele dolu when i took train to go back to ipoh, balik KL mlm pun mesti ade driver yg akan pickup...which encik tunang....tp skang dah balik sesama, sape plak nak pick up....

it's our 1st trip naik train...huhuhu....half of da journey kitowang tido jerk.....kalo naik train siang rasa cam lama sgt kan???

yup...lately nie sy sgt malas untuk mekap dan bersiap....ma eyebeg is worsen.

Do u Realize???

do you even realize any difference wif my blog???
huhuhuhu....

i have intended to do this way back when i 1st started this blog....tp cam malas nak focus on it....
and suddenly today, i've stuck on preparing a quotation and tetibe cam buhsan.....so buat jele.....
background pun sudah tuka.....hehehehe.....lupe plak nak save screen capture previous design and layout of my blog....tp xpe le.....

hope new design nie bringing a fresher look to ma blog....

main-main design.....

to bride to be, sila le ke url ini.....nanti kowang bole main design-design baju kawen cam nie....

this is how my design turned out....

isk...kalo la saya sekurus ini...hurmmm....i always wanted bustier on the front, corset tying at the back with the mermaid style dress...owh so in lurveeee wif it.....

tetibe rasa cam nak pegi amik gamba berangan pakai dress....tp.............apekan daya....we have to put a side money for mak's medical needs which cost RM1k a month....

Nak Kawen Lagik Skalik Bole????

tetibe rasa cam nak kawen lagik skalik.....
bole tak???huhu.....

kawen hari tuh rasa cam tak puas jerk....sbb rasa cam kejap sgt jerk.....nikah, mkn, sanding peh tuh dah abes....rasa cam kejap jerk.....preparation ckit punyer lama...patut le ade yg kawen smp 3 hari 3 malam.....

hurmm.....rasanyer kawen hari tuh jadik kejap jerk sbb semua skalik event dlm masa satu hari....yele, one thing bout me is i always put someone else before me....mcm my wedding la....xnak buat bnyk hari sbb nnt susahkan family in-laws kene dtg jauh-jauh.....then nak bg kengkawan yg jauh2 tuh dpt dtg....sedara mara senang dtg....dah tuh skang sendirik rasa cam tak puas lagik.....sbb bile nak ingat balik, rasa cam tak bnyk memory pun.....

tp, ape-ape pun....Alhamdulillah....everything went well and so perfect....rasanyer xde cacat cela and xde sape yg tak puas ati kecuali jiran cine makan babi aku yg bangang tuh....ko ingat kalo khemah aku terpisah dua, aku xdpt kawen???silap la bai.....

2 Months!!!!

yesterday was exactly 2 months we have been staying under one roof, sleeping in the same bed, watching da same tv, sitting on the same sofa, showering together.....oooppssss.....yg last tuh xde....

rasa macam baru jerk....tp sebenanyer dah 2 bln....though we haven't had our honeymoon, yalah due to my mother's condition.....tp, staying together in our house pun feels like honeymoon...bezanyer, we have to cook our self, made up our own bed.....huhu....hope dat mak will get better and we can go for our honeymoon....though it was delayed....tp xpe....everyday is a honeymoon....cewah.....dah dua bulan kawen tp surat nikah pun tak amik lg...huhu....jgn kitowang kene tangkap basah sudah le....

da saddest thing was, inai di jari pun macam nak abes jerk....huwarrgghhhh.....inai mr hubby dah hilang terus pun....

Me : nape inai u cam dah abes?
Mr Hubby : mana le i tau....
Me : mesti kat opis u kikis kan inai u supaya cepat abes....
Mr Hubby : hahahaha....pasal plak
Me : sbb kan u dpt anak buah baru...ramai pompuan pulak tuh....mesti u xnak derang rau u dah kawen kan???

conversation tuh sedikit gedix....da truth was, dia cepat hilang sbb kuku dia kontot-kontot....huhuhuh...kuku i panjang-panjang, runcing-runcing macam model iklan tangan gitew.....muahahaha.....

this is all that left of my inai....pas amik nie, bile tgk balik cam tgn alien yg bnyk jari plak...scary tetibe.....

and for our 2 months anniversary, i post this song at mr hubby FB....one of my fav song....

Hukum Isteri Meleteri Suami

" Abang ni balik je kerja, tak nak langsung tolong saya siapkan kerja rumah. Baca suratkhabar, menghadap TV, itu jelah yang awak tahu. Kitakan sama-sama bekerja bang. Saya pun penat macam abang juga.Sekurang-kurangnya buatlah air kopi sendiri, bukannya susah pun. Masukkan baju dalam mesin sendiri, ringan sikit kerja saya ni. Saya nak masak lagi. Abang juga yang nak makan nanti... pot.. pet... pot.. pet..... " leter Ina kepada suaminya sejurus kembali dari pejabat masing-masing.

Kalaulah Ina tahu, betapa besar hukuman serta dosanya meleteri suami sendiri,sudah tentu dia tidak akan mengulangi perbuatannya itu. Lebih-lebih lagi, sekiranya Ina menghayati ganjaran pahala yang tidak ternilai kerana berbakti kepada suaminya. Dia tidak akan merasa susah mahupunpenat dalam melaksanakan tanggungjawabnya sebagai isteri dan ibu.

Dewasa ini boleh dikatakan fenomena isteri meleteri suami atau dalam kata lain tidak menghormati suami. Bagaikan sudah menjadi satu perkara lumrah bagi kebanyakkan pasangan, tanpa sedikitpun merasa bersalah melayani mereka seperti adik lelaki sahaja lagaknya.

Apa yang lebih mendukacitakan, apabila ada di kalangan isteri yang menyifatkan menjaga peribadinya dengan bersikap sopan terhadap suami sebagai ketinggalan zaman.

Keadaan ini juga akan menjadi model yang tidak baik kepada anak-anak yang mungkin diwarisi dari satu generasi ke satu generasi lain sehingga akhirnya menjadi satu budaya yang negatif.

Banyak nas al-Quran, terutamanya hadis Nabi yang membincangkan tentang kewajipan isteri mentaati suami, selagi tidak diminta melakukan perbuatan maksiat.

Sabda Rasulullah s. a. w. yang bermaksud: " Jika sekiranya aku berhak menyuruh seseorang supaya sujud kepada seseorang yang lain, nescaya aku menyuruh para isteri sujud kepada suaminya. " Hadis tersebut menerangkan betapa kepatuhan isteri terhadap suami amat diutamakan demi kebaikan sesebuah institusi keluarga, sesuai kedudukannya sebagai pemimpin rumah tangga.

Demikian juga halnya ketika junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad s. a. w. mikraj kelangit.. Baginda telah dipersaksikan dengan neraka dan penghuninya yang kebanyakkannya terdiri daripada kaum wanita.

Ali Karramallahu Wajhah berkata: " Aku masuk ke rumah Nabi beserta Fatimah,aku mendapati baginda sedang menangis tersedu-sedan ." Aku bertanya, " Ya Rasulullah, apa yang! membuat anda menangis? "

Baginda menjawab, " Ya Ali, pada malam aku diangkat ke langit, aku melihat kaum perempuan daripada umat ku disiksa di neraka dengan bermacam-macam seksaan. Lalu aku menangis kerana begitu berat seksaan mereka yang aku lihat.. "

MENGHERDIK

Baginda antara lain melihat perempuan yang digantungkan dengan lidahnya, sedangkan air panas dituangkan ke dalam tekaknya kerana ia telah menyakiti dan menyumpah-nyumpah suaminya.

Ada isteri yang tergamak bercakap kasar malah mengherdik suaminya kerana tidak mendapat apa yang diminta seperti barang kemas, perabot rumah, baju baru, kasut baru, handbag baru dan sbg.

Lebih buruk lagi perangai si isteri apabila membanding-bandingkan suami dengan jiran tetangga yang mampu menyediakan barangan terbabit, sekali gus dilabelkan sebagai suami mithali.. Bukan tidak boleh sama sekali meminta sesuatu daripada suami tetapi janganlah menggesa mereka menuruti kemahuan anda sehingga membebankan dirinya.

Sebaliknya, isteri patut bersyukur kerana berpeluang meraih keredhaan Allah.
Nabi Muhammad s. a. w. bersabda, " Sesungguhnya Allah tidak memandang kepada seorang isteri yang tidak bersyukur kepada suaminya. "

Hal ini biasa terjadi kepada suami yang miskin, manakala isterinya pula tergolong dalam orang-orang berada, yang suka mengungkit-ungkit mengenai hartanya, apatah lagi yang telah dinafkahkan kepada suaminya.

Mungkin ia agak sukar untuk dipenuhi apatah lagi bagi isteri yang bekerja,namun percayalah, ia bukan sahaja akan menjadi perkara biasa tetapi juga ringan dan lancar, jika kita menganggapnya sebagai ibadah dan juga satu jihad.

Marilah kita sama-sama merenungi kisah anakanda kesayangan Nabi Muhammad s. a.w. iaitu Fatimah Az-Zahra yang melaksanakan rutin hariannya sebagai seorang suri rumah tangga secara sendirian tanpa pembantu. Fatimah pada suatu hari telah meminta suaminya, Ali pergi menemui Rasulullah s. a. w. dan meminta jasa baik baginda untuk menyerahkan seorang wanita tawanan perang sebagai pembantu rumah.

Rasulullah bagaimanapun tidak dapat memperkenankan permintaan puterinya kerana semua harta rampasan perang termasuk wanita-wanita itu bukan menjadi milik baginda, tetapi milik negara Islam dan kaum Muslimin seluruhnya. Baginda tidak dapat memberikan sesuatu yang bukan menjadi miliknya..

Permintaan Fatimah itu membimbangkan baginda, bukan kerana tugas berat yang sedang dipikul oleh puterinya itu tetapi disebabkan oleh bayangan keluh kesah seorang isteri yang tertekan akibat tugas-tugas yang perlu dibereskannya.

Pada sebelah malamnya, baginda telah mengunjungi rumah Fatimah dan menyatakan kepadanya: " Apakah kamu berdua (Fatimah dan Ali) suka kepada satu pemberian yang akan ku berikan ini, sedangkan ia lebih baik daripada apa yang kamu minta siang hari tadi? "

Fatimah amat sukacita mendengarkan tawaran tersebut sekalipun dia tidak mengetahui apa bentuknya. Rasulullah menyatakan kepada Fatimah bahawa hendaklah dia membaca Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah dan Allahu Akbar, masing-masing sebanyak 33 kali setiap kali sebelum tidurnya.

Semenjak itu, wirid yang diajarkan oleh Rasulullah telah menjadi amalan anak dan menantunya. Hasilnya, Fatimah mendapati dia tidak lagi menjadi keluh kesah dalam menghadapi apa jua kerja-kerja sehariannya yang berat, malah merasa cukup bahagia melakukannya.

Baginya, segala tugasan yang disempurnakannya sebagai seorang suri rumah merupakan satu amalan yang solehah. Dengan taufik Allah, sesungguhnya walau seberat mana sekalipun tugasan yang menanti di rumah, tidak akan memenatkan selagi isteri tidak meletakkan dirinya seolah-olah sama taraf dengan suami, walau setinggi mana sekalipun pangkat dan keturunannya.

Kepada para suami, kita sama-sama maklum, dalam zaman moden yang serba mencabar ini terutamanya di bandar-bandar besar, kita tidak dapat mengelak kos sara hidup yang tinggi sekaligus memerlukan kedua-dua suami isteri keluar bekerja.

Si isteri telah melakukan pengorbanan mencari rezeki tambahan untuk menyara keluarga yang sepatutnya menjadi tanggungjawab suami. Jadi sudi apalah kiranya sang suami bersama-sama meringankan tugas si isteri seadanya. Bukankah Rasulullah s.a. w. telah berpesan supaya para suami berbuat baik kepada isteri mereka.Jikalau isteri taat kepada kalian, janganlah pula menyusahkan mereka.

Nabi Muhammad s. a. w. bersabda yang ertinya: " Orang-orang yang terbaik daripada kamu sekalian adalah yang lebih baik dalam mempergauli keluarganya dan saya adalah yang terbaik dalam mempergauli keluargaku."

Bagi kaum wanita & lelaki yg sudah berumah-tangga, marilah kitasama-sama belajar saling tolong-menolong meringankan beban pasangan kita.

Semoga kisah tadi membawa menfaat bagi kita semua... insya'Allah..

SIKAP ISTERI tidak menghormati SUAMI adalah GEJALA SOSIAL MUSLIM sekarang. Ia dilakukan kerana berfikir bahawa SUAMI mesti buat seperti ISTERI dalam RUMAHTANGGA.

TABIAT-ISTERI suka meleteri suami dan TABIAT-SUAMI yang suka meletakkan semua tanggungjawab rumahtangga ke atas bahu isteri semata-mata; mestilah dihentikan, demi mendidik MENTAL ZURIAT kita ke suatu BUDAYA IBADAT.

Yesterday....

malam semalam ketika Mr hubby tgh masak nasi goreng.....mr hubby xpandai masak...dia just pandai masak nasi goreng jerk....tp nasi goreng dia kompom sedap.....selagi ade bahan kat dapo tuh, semua dia nak letak...huhu....

ok sambung balik, malam smlm ketika mr hubby tgh masak, aku call mak....sebenanyer da nite before mmg macam nak call mak...tetibe cam rindu pada mak dtg melanda.....tp time tuh tgh malam kan, xkan nak call mak.....time opis xle nak call, sbb kalo nak sembang manje-manje takut bebdk opis nie dengar....so call mlm kat umah....

Me : hellow, assalamualaikum......
Mak : waalaikumsalam......
Me : mak tgh buatpe....
Mak : kat bilik nie....
Me : mak buatpe??
Mak : nie, mak tgh kutip rambut mak yang gugur kat lantai nie.......

currently mak is undergoing a treatment which da effect is kinda similar wif chemotherapy where your hair will start to fall and she will became completely bald.....macam nak luluh jerk jantung dengar jawapan mak....mata dah bergenang...xle nak nangis, sbb kita xle sedey dpn mak....so i just continue da conversation while trying very hard not to let ma tear drop.....

and just now i called mak again....

Me : tgh hari tadi mak makan ape?
Mak : mak tak makan langsung......
Me : nape mak tak makan??
Mak : kepala mak sakit sgt....so mak tido.....
Me : kepala mak masih sakit lg? ingat dah kurang sbb makan ubat.....
Mak : dia sakit sbb nak abis gugurkan rambut mak semua.....

again, ma heart was soo sad to hear that...though da hair will re-grow, yet healthier, thicker and shinier.....(coz previously pun rambut mak penah gugur masak buat treatment breast cancer last time)......but as a women, how do u feel when u crown start to falls bit by bit?????

last time while mak undergoing her chemotherapy treatment for her breast cancer, when delina was still a baby, mak's hair felled and became thinner.....mak always wear anak tudung kat umah....so one day, while she was siting wif delina, da anak tudung accidentally falls, and when delina saw her grandma head without hair, she was freak out and cried......Ya Allah, when i heard that story, i almost cried......but, da story was told by mak dengan muka yg sgt selambe.....

mak is a very-very strong women....it's so hard to see her shed her tears....she once said "alah....nak nangis apenyer....benda yg paling sedih dalam hidup pun mak dah lalui...masa org yg mak paling sayang and kekasih mak meninggal"... she's referring to her husband; my bapak....

this was taken when mak was undergoing her radioterapi treatment for her breast cancer at KL GH....and i just realize that, she celebrated her birthday twice in a hospital...her 56th and 58th.....

Shelter Home for Homeless.....

looking for a kind, caring, loving and compassionate foster mother for 2 brothers who were ditched by their cruel mother....they we're ditched by the garbage room in Level 16, Sri Penara Apartment, Cheras here in Kuala Lumpur late last nite.......

this all happened due to their mother's new husband could not accept them in the new family....even though as a foster child to any of their mother's relatives not to mention their mother's niece....the reason is, the mother's new husband couldn't accept them and it is very impossible for them to even be in the family due to the grudge and bad memory of their father.....

this is the only photo kept by their mother as a memoir....

dudu on the left wif his brother didi taken outside of the garbage room......

kesian....when i look at them, by da garbage house.....atas kotak sampah...telentok jerk sesama derang....tetibe rasa sedih......sayang sgt kat derang....coz i always lurve soft toys....nak mintak ganti rugi tak dapat....huwarrrggghhhhh...!!!!!!!! nak pujuk gak mr hubby belikan baru.....bile mintak dia ckp, "nak buatpe beli....i kan ade....peluk i sudah....." xnak...xsama....nak soft toys gak...soft toys baek...tgn tak merayap.....

50 questions.....

50 questions

Sleep with or without clothes on?
wif cloth...kalo tak nnt ade benda merayap atas dada ku....

Prefer black or blue pens?
blue pen...

Dress up on Halloween?
org mesia xsambut Halloween.....

Like to travel?
yup...yup......ade ke yg tak suka??i always love beach....

Like Someone?
Mr hubby le....kalo tak like xkan kawen....

Do they know?
xtau kot...that's why he married me....

Who sleeps with you every night?
different guy on different nite.....huhuhuh...logik kah???

Think you're attractive?
yup...yup....readers, if u dun think i am...go to hell wif wut u think...huhuhu....

Want to get married?
nak buat majlis lagik skalik....sbb itu hari cam tak puas....

To?
Johnny Depp plak ke...Hugh Jackman pun bole gak....

Are you a good student?
depends...

Are you currently happy?
Always....

Have you ever cheated?? Been cheated on?
muahaha...mestilah.....ade ke org tak penah menipu??tp cheated on relationship xde la...

Birthplace?
Ipoh malee....ipoh, ipoh malee.....

Christmas or Halloween?
Hari Raya.........!!!!

Colored or black-and-white photo?
Colored la....

Do long distance relationships work?
dunno....wish will never experience it...

Do you believe in astrology?
just read it to make me happy jerk....kekadang tak betul pun, tp sbb psychology.....

Do you believe in love at first sight?
nope....most ppl love me when they know me....

Do you consider yourself the life of the party?
nope.....dulu yer...skang tidak lg....

Do you drink?
now nescaffe la....

Do you make fun of people?
muahahaha.....u can ask my former hauz-mate...we even named ppl....

Do you think dreams eventually come true?
kalo yg tak melampau-lampau la.....

Favorite fictional character?
Rebecca Bloomwood ......

Go to the movies or rent?
movies......lebih focus....

Have you ever moved?
so many times....

Have you ever stolen anything?
yup...yup....hahahaha....

How's the weather right now?
redup...ptg kang hujan la....

Last time you cut your hair?
early this month.....

Last person you talked to on the phone?
mak...smlm....

Last time you showered?
pagi td la weis....siap melabur lg....

Loud or soft music?
loud....the louder the better....

McDonalds or Burger King?
Mc Donalds......

Night or day?
nite...aku nie jenis owl...dr dolu lg....

Number of pillows?
2....and one bantal peluk...wajib for protection....nnt ade benda melekat di dada....huhu....

Piano or guitar?
dedua pun tak....family aku xde tgn seni......

Future job?
manager kot....

Current job?
fbooking, blogging, surfing....

Current love?
this morning mak....

Current longing?
mak gak....

Current disappointment?
mr hubby marah pada benda yg ntah pape....

Current annoyance?
huurrmmmm....i'm not easily annoyed....

Last thing you ate?
wholemeal toast wif a slice of cheese...ma all time fav since standar 1...cume masa standar 1 mkn roti putih....

Last thing you bought?
santan kotak, serbuk kari ayam and kangkungfor dinner last nite.....

Most recent thing you are looking forward to?
weekend nie....

What are you hearing right now?
Kak Azurah typing on her keyboard....

Plans for the weekend?
laundry tuk baju yg dah 2 bakul tuh, repair air-cond keta.....masak nasi ayam yang mr hubby dah teringin since a month ago....sian dia....

What did you do today?
memasuk opis dah bukak blog...huhuhu....

Pick a lyric, any lyric or song?
nothing at the moment.....

Pick a movie quote?
off with his head!!!!!!

a mother can have thousand daughters, but thousand daughters can only have one mother.....

June 2007
mak was diagnose wif breast cancer...she, who was a very health cautious who will do a fully medical check-up every year, but yet she being diagnosed with women's number 1 enemy....she took food supplementary and jog every weekend...Subhanallah...Allah maha besar...Allah knows better.....

December 2008
mak went to performed her Haj for da 2nd time...she said, this time she's going to be insaf once she's back...huhu....dolu pegi muda and memain....bole plak kan???

February 2010
mak got constant headache...it happened 1 to 2 weeks after my wedding....she thought it was just a normal migraine...so she just rest and took panadol....which she was not really a fan of it....and sometimes, ppl like to send or attack her wif black magic...yeah, we experienced it several times....i'm not saying it exist and i'm believing it, it's just Allah maha berkuasa...Allah mampu mencipta ape pun makhluk didunia ini....

17th March 2010
mak went to Ipoh General Hospital to check bout her headache....coz she couldn't eat...when ever she consume anything, she'll vomit...but da thing was, she didn't eat anything, so she only vomit air and kahak....at government hospital, so they just took blood pressure:OK, glucose:OK, cholesterol:OK..everything was OK....but she's still in pain....

20th March 2010
me and mr hubby went back to Ipoh...to celebrate mak's birthday...at this time, mak was very sick...she couldn't get off of her bed....so, as an only daughter and da dearest to her, i feed her and stay by her....

23rd March 2010
her severe headache is unbearable by her....so she went to Ipoh GH again, this time to emergency....they did a CT Scan....again da blood pressure, glucose and cholesterol check...again, they said it was nothing....they said mak got FOOD POISONING!!!... that's why she keep on vomiting...wut da fuck doctor...food poisoning kat kepala ker??? macam haram...
and abang (my eldest brother) decided to take her to Pantai Hospital Ipoh....she did MRI Scan.... and that was when we found out bout her pain....previously her breast cancer limp node was under her arm pit...and through the MRI scan, doctor rectified that the cancer cells have spread to behind her neck and her head.....owh....wut a devastating news for me...i was in KL....
Innalillah hiwainna ilaihirajiun....da doctor said, no operation shud be done...coz it may effect her vision and speech coz da cancer is at her nerve...da doctor prescribe mak for Radiotherapy treatment....

24th March 2010
i took Emergency Leave today and went back to Ipoh...Mr Hubby took MC, coz he finished his allocated leave....da only hospital in Ipoh with radiotherapy is in Ipoh Specialist....so, we admitted mak to Ipoh specialist....she has no insurance coverage any more coz she had one of the critical illnesses symptom before...so, it's up to her childs which she gave birth and raised all by her self since da last 17 years....mak concern was bout da fee, she was a government pensioner before and she's entitle for 1st class GH treatment...tp, if u've been reading this..u'll think we won't think twice to admit her to GH......

25th March 2010
she undergo her 1st Radiotherapy.....

27th March 2010
Mak celebrated her 58th Birthday on the hospital bed....just like arwah Bapak 18 years ago.....

29th March 2010
mak unconscious after went to the bathroom....she's admitted to ICU.....i went back to Ipoh again with Mr Hubby.....

30th March 2010
Mr Hubby went back to KL early in da morning and head straight to office....i stayed with mak...she's still in ICU....i feed her every single meals and she's been consuming it in a large amount....i brushed her hair and tied her hair neatly....i lotioned her hands and feets...read her newspaper and she was so happy and cheerful...she hasn't been vomiting at all for da 1st time.... and she received a very wonderful news from K Linda (ma 1st sis in-law)....and it was da greatest news for all of us....i even cried wif joy....that evening mak was transfered from ICU to HDU (high dependency Unit)...

31st March 2010
Abang was admitted in da same hospital for his back pain....during her stay in da hospital, several times she mentioned she wanted a bread toast with garlic break spread, and every time i went back, mesti lupa nak buat....but that morning, i made mak vegetable soup....even she didn't want to take hospital's meals coz she was waiting for my soup....sorry mak amy sampai lambat....i was looking for train ticket to KL....system plak bole down that day...damn....i finally arrived at the hospital around 1:00 pm and mak still didn't eat..when i just wanted to feed mak wif lunch, we were chased out from HDU coz it was the nurses changing shift time....at around 4:00pm we were allowed into the room and again i can't feed mak coz mak was in a midst of transferring from HDU to normal ward.....

Finally when she settled down at her normal ward, it was a twin sharing room with abang.....i feed her and she eats a lot....same goes to our cute lil nurse, Delinot (my 1st niece) who has been taking care of mak...she's just 4 years old....she can even hold a bowl for mak to vomit....she rub mak's chest and back when mak vomiting...owh, how pure her heart is....that nite, i took a train back to KL.....

this is da lil nurses attending the patient....

4th April 2010
took my parents in-laws to visit mak...they came to KL from seremban yesterday...stayed one nite at our house...previously, abg smses me saying that mak was so weak coz she couldn't eat....but when i feed her, she eats a lot...abang said, da doctor asked all her sons, daughter, daughters in-law and son in-law to massage her...belai her with love....so, i massage her thighs, massage her hands with lotion.....stretch her arms....massage her back...well, i have a healing hand in massaging....huhu.....i brushed her hair....lotioned her feet....and it was so hard and heavy for me to leave her that day....she looks happy and cheerful....

kesian, she was soo tired....this is when mak was in ICU...she's been crying coz she wanted to see mak..mak's bed was facing the entrace...when ever we open da door, she'll be standing by the entrance and waving at her beloved Opah....but when mak was transfered to HDU, her bed was not facing da entrace nemore, so we asked permission from nurse to smuggle her in...she came in quietly, hug and kisses mak, then she left...

when i first heard bout her sickness, i thought to myself...."Ya Allah, aku blum rela untuk melepaskan mak aku pergi....aku belum bersedia untuk hidup tanpa mak....i wanted her to see my child....i want to celebrate my 1st raya as a wife with her.....i want to lean on her....lie on her lap....sleep beside her while hugging her thightly.... kiss her always...."

but when i see her condition, i thought to myself "Ya Allah, aku rela jika masa ibu ku sudah tiba... aku sudah tak sanggup melihat dia tersiksa...jika itu yg terbaik, aku redha...."

but mak said, she asked doctor "doctor, saya nie nak mati dah ker?" and da doctor said, "tak makcik, Insyaallah nyawa makcik panjang lagi"......and mak also said to me "Mak nak tgk anak K Linda dan anak kamu".....

up to yesterday, her medical and hospitalization fees was almost 20K.....and i dunno how da heck i'm gonna pay my part (we're going to share between 3 of us)....i was not even married for 2 months, which i paid everything for my wedding, we just moved in to new house....i haven't even settled down....but, that's called Qada' & Qadar and dugaan dr Allah....again, Allah xkan menguji hambanya jika Dia tahu hambanya tak mampu menanggung ujian tersebut.....

and until this time, she is still in hospital....all of you, please doa for my mom...doakan semoga dia cepat sehat and semoga dia sempat bermain dengan anak aku (and no, i'm not pregnant yet)....

Balik Kampung....wooo...balik kampung......

20th March 2010 was marked in our wedding calendar as it was the first and ever we hubby and wifey went back to Ipoh.....yeehhaa.....walaupun sebenanyer mr hubby pernah jerk balik ipoh dgn aku....tp perahsaan pulang sbg bf, en tunang and mr hubby is very different....

mr hubby tersgt over excited nak cuci keta auto kat jalan kuala kangsar coz it's just RM3....masa sampai ipoh jerk dia dah tanya "kita exit kat tpt yg cuci keta RM3 tuh tak?"...."kalo u nak gi McD, kita tak lalu la..." i replied....then muka cam keciwa....

sampai kat McD Drive-thru kat bercham tuh, tgk McD tuh berasap-asap...then gelap jerk...peh tuh riuh giler...almaklumler, satu tempat tuh kalo dah ade cine, mmg bising giler babi le....pegi kaunter yang dlm kegelapakn tuh, then staff McD ckp "ade nugget ngan ayam goreng jerk"..."nape pulak?"...letrik xde la bang....keciwa lg, xdpt mkn McD coz both of us was craving for McD breakfast.....

then memandangkan dah xdpt mkn McD, bwk le Mr Hubby berseronok di tpt cuci keta automatik RM3....peh tuh singgah le ke gunung lang, which was da suggested venue for our outdoor wedding photography....i never been there before....

tp, tpt tuh xde le cantek mn pun (it's just my personal opinion)....cume ikan dia bnyk dan gemuks-gemuks....

ikan gemuks-gemuks...kitowang siap beli mknan dia...huhu....

mr hubby cam buat iklan "datanglah ke gunung lang..ia best!"...