LUSA???!!!!!

lusa ker??? betul ker??hari nie dah 12 feb?? salah calendar kot...kalendar nie silap kire....patutnyer hari nie baru 1 January....huhuhu...macam tak caya jerk...in 2 days time, i'll be Mrs Hafeezie....

no more mak lil gurl....and no more bancik and abang lil sister....dah xle nak manja2 ngan mak....dah xle nak merengek2 ngan mak....dah xle nak tido ngan mak...isk...isk.... dah xle nak manja2 ngan bancik and abg...xle nak soh derang buat memacam dah....no more my family lil gurl...i am a very manja child....i've been the only daughter and i'm the youngest....i didn't realize that i was manja until feezie says i am when he came back a few time to our house...and not only him, Ellia, my besties for 14 years, who knows me as an independent gurl, garang and strict, admit that i'm manja with my mak.....dunno....for me biasa jerk....they said the way i talk, the way i call mak and the way mak treat me....huhu....

aku dah besar rupenyer....dah dewasa...i'm a lady now....time flies really fast....yesterday i was someone's lil daughter and lil sister...and now, i'm going to be someone's wifey....more responsibilities, more toleration, more give and take, no more thinking bout myself, no more care less......will i be the wife who'll open a door to heaven for my husband?? or be a wife who'll drag my husband to hell???

will i be a gud wife??will i make my husband hepi?? will he still love me till the rest of our lives?? will i??? only time will tell....sanggupkah aku beraya selain dari dgn my family??without mak around??? i once had a dream, 1st raya kat umah feezie, and i cried da whole day....xnak!!xnak!! nak raya ngan mak tetiap tahun...nak ade dgn mak on morning of every raya...as long as she still lives...now, i will move to another house...syurga bukan lagi bawah tapak kaki mak...

how i wish my dad will be here...how i wish my dad yg akan nikahkan aku...but things happened as it is...that's Allah promises....maybe if my dad is still around, i won't even met fizi...everything happens for a reason.....

"Ya Allah ya tuhanku, ko jadikanlah majlis ku ini majlis yang sempurna, diberkati dan dirahmati olehMu ya Allah...ko berikanlah kesenangan, keselesaan dan kegembiraan pada para hadirin, kaum keluarga, sanak saudara, jiran tetangga dan semua yang hadir dan menjayakan majlis ini Ya Allah...Ya Allah, ko jadikanlah hari tersebut cerah, selesa dan tidak hujan...ko jadikanlah para hadirin yang datang pulang dengan kesenangan dan kegembiraan...Ya Allah ya tuhan ku, sesungguhnya ko maha pengasih dan maha penyayang...Engkau maha memahami dan maha mengetahui.... "

this might be my last post as a single lady...but one thing for sure, i will always be mak's lil gurl and abang and bancik lil sister....