Rezeki Allah comes in so many ways and forms..
it might not be in a form of cash or materials,
it might be in a form of your healthiness and your family healthiness,
it might be in the quality time spent with family and love ones,
it can also be in a form of and happiness,
stop complaining, comparing and condemning,
cherish and embrace all the things you have coz without Allah's will, u wont have any.. —
feeling wonderful.I have been thinking bout posting this status for a few days already.. not sure why, maybe coz I'm moving to a new era and a new age.. today is my final 2.. I'm going to be 30 by tomorrow..
or is it because of all the things that happened around me with my friends and family..
lately, there's a lot of occasion and incident that makes me sit and ponder, Allah mmg Maha pemurah, Allah tak pernah kedekut especially dengan aku.. if we sit and think and compare what we have now, there is a lot to be thankful for..
kalau nak compare ngan org lain, kami ni bkn le jenis berduit.. aku slalu pikir nape le kami ni jenis kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang mkn petang.. aku slalu mcm menyirap je ngan En Suami sbb slalu xde duit (tp aku rasa sebenanye dia saje ckp kat aku yg dia xde duit. laki aku nie jenis kedekut ckit) hahaha.. hutang keliling pinggang.. hire purchase la, mortgage la, personal loan lagi, study loan lagi campur lg ngan credit card.. kami xmampu pakai keta baru, masing2 dok pakai kereta wira yang dah lebih dr 10 thn.. even driver office aku pun mampu pakai Exora.. but then aku terpikir, ade tu nak pakai kereta pun xmampu.. angkut anak bini naik moto redah hujan.. aku penah nampak ade motorcyclist ni bawak anak dia balik sekolah, dok dpn dia, kaki dalam bakul, pastu tetido atas handle.. sedihnya rasa.. but then when i think back, Alhamdulillah, xpernah sekali pun sampai kami xde makanan untuk dijamah.. xpenah lagi le sampai kene menahan lapa..
another rezeki that people often forgot is, rezeki anak..
Alhamdulillah aku diberi kesuburan dan rezeki anak.. masa kawen itu hari pun, sempat sekali je period, terus lekat dah.. we didnt plan to get it so soon.. kalau ade tu ade la, kalo xde kami xkesah.. but mungkin time tu Allah ambil mak aku, Dia beri aku dgn Ameer sebagai pengganti.. and then for this 2nd child, baru je terpikir maybe it's time to get another child for us, skalik 1st attempt pun dah lekat.. Subhanallah Alhamdulillah, mudahnya bagi kami.. one of my best friend, her journey to motherhood wasn't easy.. she's been married for 4 years, br dpt anak.. itupun she has to take injection which cost her thousands of dollar.. and her sister pun minta tolong aku doakan spy dia dpt lagi baby sbb she said doa ibu mengandung ni makbul.. huhu.. ade plak opismate aku nie dah 5 thn kawen.. dah operate buang cyst and mcm2 treatment, still xde rezeki jugak..
being pregnant is a rezeki, the journey through pregnancy itself is also rezeki..
Alhamdulillah aku dr time pregnantkan Ameer dulu xde pun morning sickness.. muntah pun bole kire bape kali.. bloated or water retention pun mmg xde.. kencing manis or darah tinggi pun xde.. my pregnancies are a bliss.. nak masak pun larat, nak buat house chores bole lagik, driving smp le delivery day pun larat, even pakai 2.5 inc heels during 37th weeks pregnant pun aku bole lg.. ade officemate aku nie, berjalan pun termengah-mengah.. one of my oldfriend dia ckp dia loya and morning sickness every single day. berlari-lari ke toilet and sampai terduduk le tepi jamban opis sbb xlarat sangat asyik nak termuntah. and then ade wife office mate aku ni dia punya water retention sampai kene pakai cast kat pergelangan tangan. then peha dia bengkak sampai doctor kene balut kaki dia to prevent bengkak to worsen. Subhanallah, bukan senang Allah nak menghapuskan dosa. tp aku Alhamdulillah mudah je.
one thing that I'm very thankful is my health and my family's health..
Alhamdulillah, semenjak lahir Ameer xpenah kene penyakit yg teruk or being admitted.. just fever, flu and cough.. aku and PZ pun xpenah lagi sakit teruk except for ade 1 time tu PZ kene diarrhea smp kene buat endoscopic and admitted for a day..
my department mate, MC for 1 week sbb suspected dengue.. exactly after that plak, his 7 months old son plak kene admitted for a week sbb fever.. it's a viral fever caused from the current haze situation.. then my best friend's 2YO son admitted as well due to diarrhea for almost a week.. my office mate plak, his 3YO son kene operate tonsil.. anak dia dah amek pneumuococal vaccine tp still infected with pneumonia sampai 2 kali masuk ICU.. in the end, kene operate buang tonsil.. yang sayunya sbb anak kecik yang sakit.. aku ni tgk Ameer demam panas je pun macam dah sayu, inikan kalo bebdk tu derita sakit.. Subhanallah.. semoga dugaan yg diorang alami tu adalah ujian dan penghapus dosa kedua parents nya...
satu lagi rezeki yang orang slalu terlepas pandang.. having a love ones and the people who's loving you around you..
Allah ambil orang yang paling aku sayang disaat aku sangat memerlukannya.. I'm the youngest in my family and Im the only daughter.. I've been my mother's best friend since we lost my father.. which when i was 10 years old.. we went anywhere together.. i follow her shopping, accompanying her for outstation, meeting up with friends, that's why I know most of her friends and her friends know me even until now.. she knows all my close friends and I like to talk bout them with mak. and Mak she will always membebel to me, she will always try to pick on me or selalu cari salah aku. when i asked her, "Nape mak slalu marah amy? ade je benda yang tak kena. nape?" her simple answer was, "Mak nak ajar kamu to be a better person. to improve yourself. to be tough and tahan setiap dugaan". I replied, "nape abang ngan bancik tak kene marah pun macam amy?" then mak replied, "mak nak kamu jadi lagi bagus dan elok daripada diorang. lagipun diorang lelaki. kamu perempuan. kamu akan kawen and ade mertua & ipar, kalau tegor ckit pun kamu xtahan, macam mana kamu nak hidup dengan suami, keluarga mertua and macam mana kamu nak jaga anak?" everytime mak marah, not even once i walked away from her when she's talking, show my back to her or even slammed a door behind me. and now when i think back, Alhamdulillah mak thought me like that. she thought me to be tough, to be strong and to be patient. If not, i don't think i can go through what i've been through now. losing my father, then losing my mother. kene DI, suspend, potong gaji, xdapat increment, bonus kene potong then 3 years being denied for a promotion by the management though i performed above average.
Allah ambil Mak masa aku baru 4 bulan kawen which i still needs her guidance and tunjuk ajar dalam menjalankan tugas sebagai seorang isteri dan mengendalikan rumah tangga.. to share with her how wonderful my husband is.. how similar they could be.. Mak suka makan anything with red bean, so does En Suami.. both of them like Green colour.. Mak loves jagung, so does En Suami.. and a few other things that they actually shared the same interest.. and En Suami even said, "Bestkan kalau mak ade. mesti seronok. mesti mak selalu datang rumah kita. I pun xsempat nak beramah mesra dengan mak". i was so touched coz i know how much he loves my mom and how much more he could be in love with her if he gets to know her better. At the same time I was 3 months pregnant.. the moment where every women really-really needs their mom.. I have a lot of questions bout my pregnancy, bout the development and most of all, someone very dear to me to be by my side when I'm going through the pain of labor.. seronok dengar orang cerita pasal pantang mak jaga.. mak siapkan mandian, mak siapkan tungku, mak masakkan makanan, mak jagakan anak.. My mak haven't even got the chance to hold any of my zuriat.. I definitely sure if mak is still around, Ameer will definitely be her favourite grandchild.. she will always be at our house, she will always find way to come and stay at our house.. and i will definitely go back to Ipoh every month..
tp Allah itu maha adil.. Alhamdulillah Allah beri aku Mak Mertua yang sanggup menjaga aku ketika pantang..memang MIL xkan sama dengan mak sendiri, tp bolehlah juga aku menumpang kasih pada MIL.
when i observe people around, I realize that people who doesn't really appreciate their mom and not treating like I did, Mak diorang Alhamdulillah panjang umor.. I never go around and tell people that my mother is bias and "Mak aku bukan sayang aku pun".. how could she day that to all her fiends while when i look at that person, she's living with her mom and they have a maid. Her mom buy a lot of nice & expensive things for her children. Her mom paid for her house furniture, her mom paid for her debts.. aku ni, nak klua berdua dengan suami pun kene ambik cuti masa Ameer kat nursery. itupun just for a movie or lunch date which only took us a few hours. bergolok bergadai tuk beli rumah and we don't even have extra money tuk install kitchen cabinet.
some people can just sit around and the mother cook for her and her husband. Her mother even serve meals for her and her husband. her mother have to hold her child while she's eating, once she's done eating baru her mother eats. Ya Allah, sampainya hati.. i could never imagine i could have a heart to do that to mak.
aku ni seboleh-bolehnya try my very best tak menyusahkan Mak aku. I've start cooking for my family since I'm in form 1 just to lessen her burden. I will always serve her food and she's my priority. Never even once I asked for her money since I went to MMU except for house deposit. If she's doing any house chores, i will insist to do it for her. Tak pernah sampai hati aku ni nak tgk mak aku susah payah buat kerja. I wouldnt let her carry any shopping bags even it's just a slice of bread. Subhanallah punya kasih aku pada Mak sampai xsanggup langsung tengok dia susah. So I can't never understand how people could just hurt or just asking their mother to do things for them.
sampai to the extend that i said to En Suami, "Bestnya org yang ade mak bapak ni. mungkin nyawa dia panjang sbb anak-anak dia masih memerlukan diorang."..
Kesimpulannya, rezeki Allah comes in so many ways. belajarlah bersyukur dan kurangkanlah merungut and complain. what you have now is rezeki dari Allah..
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